Hello blog, I've neglected you

It is half past midnight that I find myself back here.

The last post I made was in August 2011, some time has passed since then but somehow though I've opened a tumblr account and neglected that too, there is something that calls me back here. Perhaps as it is a hidden corner of the internet which I can still publish my thoughts without the whole world somehow knowing.

I miss writing. I miss writing for no one else but myself. It's so much easier to write when you don't expect people to read it. Even if they do in the end, the thoughts just come out more freely.

I realise that this is my downfall. That I think too much. I think too much and care what people think too much, so much so that it causes me to rethink my thoughts or rather hold them back, the very ones that make me ME.

Sometimes you just have to go ahead and be selfish. Block out all the people trying to pull you one way or another. Limited resources, unlimited wants. The basic economic problem. But if you try to stretch yourself in every which way to make others happy, this doesn't necessarily lead you to happiness yourself.